No!

I hate my life rn. I have to sleep here, in someones bed, I don't have a hairbrush, toothbrush, nightwear or skincare products. I feel like a mess and I don't want to be here (I'm 100% not coming back here never again). I don't feel good, I feel uncomfortable, a little scared and I can't sleep. The sheets smell of someone, I hate it. I don't want to go to sleep. I can't see a thing in the room, cause I closed the door and put the curtain on. I'm not alone here, I am alone in this room. My mom and little brother are in the room next to me, door closed, so I can't talk with them and there are some people next to them aswell, so I couldn't talk with them anyways and I don't want to talk to my mom cause I didn't want to stay here. We had to stay cause they decided to fix my moms car, cause why not, right? They don't know I'm vegan and I'm not going to explain it to them, cause I don't want to! I just want to get up and hop onto the car, drive to a shop, get a watermelon and a spoon and then drive home. But no we have to wake up, see them while acting ok, but feeling like a mess. Then my mom is making plans for the day and I'm just like nooo, I want to go home, no one understands me, if I say I want to go home. I didn't fell asleep, I hardly slept for 30 mins because I felt really uncomfortable, I kept waking up after like an hour or so. I felt like something was crawling on me, something little, but it might of  been my dream or something. I went to bed at 12 AM (00:00). Now it's 8 AM and I'm up, not really, I'm still in the bed, cause I don't want to go anywhere, cause no one is awake. I heard someone walk downstairs and I think it was my mom. Btw they said to me: "sleep as long as you want", but I'm a morning person. I really just want to go home. The kids and some grownups are awake and talking downstairs, but I'm not going. 

I'm not unthankful, I just wanted to go home. I didn't want to stay, I didn't want to eat some grilled meat.  I wanted my bed and my home.

The morning: 

We had planned to go to a event, they invited us. We went there by ourselves and we didn't see them while being there. There was a lot of people, it was like a outdoor festival and some people sold things like jewellery, soaps, cheese, ice creams and other things they had made. I don't do well with crowded places, I just don't like it at all. It was blue sky with some little clouds. So it was really hot and I had put on jeans and a long jumper kind of thing + I have dark hair. So I was melting and didn't feel good and comfortable. 

 

 There were some wrecks from a long time ago.

We walked 7 km and after that I felt really tired, my mom already agreed to just have a little rest and then go home by car, but then they called and invited us over. My mom accepted the invitation and I asked if we could not be there for a long time, cause I was tired. So the night went and went by, they tried to fix my mom's car and they put in there something that had to dry overnight (-_-,). We (me, brother and a kid) played cards, soccer with a basketball that wasn't full and hide and seek, there wasn't much to do. As the night came, kids went inside, so did I. Ithers started playing with their phones, but me and my brother watched some Natural Geographic (cause there was notting else to watch) and played cards. One of the hosts showed us (brother and me) the rooms, that we were going to stay in. I was so pissed off that we had to stay here, my impression showed that. So my mom came and we went to bed. 

Next day: 

They made pancakes for breakfast. Luckily I had bought a lavash bread, the thin one. So I got that from the car and ate it with the jam. After that I really wanted to go home, but my mom and a woman made plans to go to the beach and to a adventure park (where we climb and try to get to the end of a track). We ended up doing it all. 

 

View from a tower that was in the beachy kind of thing.

At the end of the day I was okay with it, I quite enjoyed the park. 

 

It was really hard to do it and I kept doing splits with jeans. I liked it, I think it was a little overpriced as there was only 2 tracks and it cost like 16€.

 It was kind of a vlogy kind of thing. I might do more of these. 

Bad CAN turn into a good thing, if you're open to the world.

 Sometimes you just have to say yes.